its been a while since i listened to slower songs like those from Secret Garden. they used to make me feel sad and emo when listening to them back then while i was alone on long bus trips home. now thinking back, being able to do that seems like a treat, as i can hardly feel those kinds of straightforward sadness or loneliness anymore.

sometimes when trying to emo for a while under the influence of certain songs, i end up yawning or giggling and juz give up after a short while. lol. i guess sad things no longer seem or feel that simple anymore. many other things are involved especially when the realities of the world and society steal away our sincere and honest feelings, or even when fatigue numbs us from the world.

well, at least i know im not going to jump or whatnot anytime soon >.<